Posted by DreamGoal

Date Posted January 22, 2008

I have to get past this...no more sitting on the couch and watching tv shows wishing I looked more like the girls on them..no more excuses...no more saying I don't have anyone to watch my son when my gym has free chilcare...no more eating empty calories.  I gained 75 lbs in my pregnancy with preeclampsia and now, when my son is 5 and a half months old, I am left with 65 lbs to lose.  I kept telling myself the weight would fall right off without me having to do much of anything and I have to stop...now.  In 2006 I went from 196 lbs to 158 in 4 months..now I'm at 215 and evern though I'm miserable with myself I keep putting off the weight loss and the commitment.  No more..I have to start NOW...I think the hardest thing is not having anyone with similar goals to talk to, to hold me accountable when I let myself slip.  I've tried getting my fiance's help, but he just agrees to it and then wants to order pizza the very next night.  I'm starting this today..I've had 340 calories so far and after class I am getting on my cardio equipment and starting this..just 500 calories a day...if I can commit to just burning 500 calories a day though cardio and doing a set strength training workout I can make this work..I used to love working out...the gym used to call to me and I would look foward to nothing else all day besides the sweat pouring down my body, the deep breathing and the cool steel of the weights..how have I gotten here?  I have got to get myself back! If anyone else is looking for a friend, either a workout buddy or just someone to chat with feel free to drop me a line!